Things are ok, I suppose.

Jess left home again. I don't know what she's doing or thinking.... I wasn't there when it happened. Prayers are welcome.

I work everyday of the week...suckfest!

Blah...

My foot...

So yeah, Monday April 30, I broke my foot at Crazy Bounce....and it sucks. Can't work. Can't walk. Can hardly drive. My sister is staying with me and helping me out at my house. My parents got us some groceries so we have good, which I'm so thankful for!!! Half of my foot is blue and purple, and my toes are like little Jimmy Dean sausages:( You don't know what kind of things you take for granted like walking until you can't, or opening and walking through doors or going to the bathroom with ease....

But, I will be singing on Sunday, so yeah!!!

_Your new "Gimp"

You Are Indigo

Of all the shades of blue, you are the most funky, unique, and independent. Expressing yourself and taking a leap of faith has always been easy for you.

What Color Blue Are You?

It's...ok for now.

So this past week had been a downer.

Things with Jessi are rough. She's still not home.

Nate broke up with me, and I'm ok with it...it's just that I don't know why. I still love him. And I would take him back, but on some stipulations. I miss him so much, I always had so much fun with him, I felt safe with him, wanted, loved...and now I feel so alone. So empty.

I don't know what to think of things.....

I'm finishing the move this weekend. I'm excited.

I hung out with Stephanie from work yesterday, watched Marie Antoinette. It was alright, the ending sucked though.

Have to work tonight, so yeah......that's that. We'll see how things with Nate go. See if he talks to me.



.i.miss.you.

12

It's been a while.

Today I received 12 red roses from Nate. I thought that was really nice. I got him an orange rose and a silver chain necklace. After I bought the rose, I thought to myself, why didn't I get a red one??? Anywho, I don't exactly know how he feels about the necklace, because he said he liked it, but his face said otherwise.

I will be moving out hopefully at the end of the month in to my trailer that I'm way stoked about!! Whoo hoo!!! I'll post some pictures when I get some of the finished place.

MMmmmmblaaahhh....

That's how I feel right now.

I started VLI (Vineyard Leadership Institute) on Thursday. A two hour long lecture on a video from 7-9 pm. It was rough the first time, I was half falling asleep due to lack-there-of. I felt kind of bad about it too. I don't know. Friday, I had mentoring with Pastor Paul, which was good, I liked that. Now, I have to do some reading like bad, and what ever other homework I have to do for Thrusday, and I have to come up with a 15 minute sermon from 3-5 verses, that I have to do on Friday. Dustin and I have to do it this week, and Trevor and Eric the next....so, we'll see if I can put my speech class to work. Visual aids? Is that necessary for this project thing that I have to do.

But other than that, Saturday morning, I went skating with Nate and my mom. My mom had come from a hair cut, and did a few rounds, and then got off the floor. She was using her 40 year old skates that she got when she was 16 from her aunt. Those things are ancient. They were hurting her feet, so that's understandable. Not to mention, the last time she was on skates, she went head first in to the brick wall by the D.J. booth. Long story, ask her about it....haha. After that, we all went shopping, and then to Fennville to get my cousin. My aunt wasn't feeling too good, so we got the baby for a few hours. When we got back, we went to sleep, and woke up late. We were two hours late for work....blah!!! It's all good though.

I worked pop and water last night. That was cool, I like it over there. Lots of time to think, and not be bothered by people. Mmhmm. Nate was in paper goods and chemicals, which is right near pop and water. So that was cool. I could just yell if I wanted to say anything to him. He went to church with a friend from work. I visited that church before, and wasn't too fond of it. Although, I'm not real fond of her either. I was a little bothered by it, and I think I got a little jealous. I felt horrible about it too. I didn't say anything to him, but I'm going too. He asked me what was wrong at break, and I said nothing. I didn't want to cause a big scene at work.

I got a word a few weeks ago from my dad (I think I mentioned that before)about a series of tests that are coming up, and I think that this was one of them. I told my mom and dad that it was bothering me. My mom suggested that I tell him, and let him know. We need to be able to talk about anything. So, I'll step out on a limb, and tell him. After going to church, I felt much better, just a little tired. It was a good service. God was there, but, when isn't He??? Am I right?

Anywho, I came home, my sister went to my grandparent's house, and my parents went grocery shopping. I watched Avatar, and did the dishes while singing to Flyleaf. They are pretty good, I think they are a Christian band, they have good messages to their songs. Check them out!

This post is for Eric's mom (please forgive me, I forgot your name!!) and Matt, since they are the only ones who said anything about me not posting for a while.

Also, sorry for the lack of pictures, I've been lazy about charging my battery, and I just got it charged. More pictures to come!!!

Peace!

Back in the swing of things...

So, the past few days have been good.

On Sunday, I went to church right after work. I had to sing, it's been a while, and it felt good to be up there again! I missed it. Nate came again too. He got dropped off at his house after work, and then walked to Rey's house to give him his fork lift keys back, and then walked to the gas station to get some food and something to drink. He then attempted to walk to my church, and in turn, got lost. He called me, and I asked my grandma to go pick him up. She found him, and he came to church! Yay!! So, I had to stay for both services, and it was communion Sunday. I felt that I wasn't very in to the worship as much as I should have been. I felt like I was dead to everything. I was in a bad mood from work, and I don't know, I think it might have carried over to church. I didn't like the way I was feeling. After I got done at church, we had lunch at my house with my grandparents, KFC!!!! Woot! I tried to get some sleep in but Nate had the night off, along with Monday, so he stayed while I was at work. We spent 2 and a half days together! WOW!, I don't think I can get sick of him, well, at least for now.

Monday was ok. I slept for like maybe 4 hours throughout the day. Jessi stayed home because she wasn't feeling good. Jessi, Nate and I stayed home and watched movies all day. We made breakfast, eggs, toast and sausage. Nate and I dropped my car offf at the shop because my power steering has a leak and something else that I can't remember (sorry mom!!). I had to work that night, and I was tired. I felt like I was going to puke and I wanted to go home. I went home for lunch, and ate something and felt better. So, I went back to work.

Tuesday morning, Nate made me pancakes which was sweet!! We watched movies all day again, talked for a bit and I think I slept some throughout the day. Nate said he was playing with my nose ring, and I don't remember any of it. That's cool I suppose. Jessi hung out with some friends for a few hours after school. Nate and I picked up my car and then went to get Chinese for everyone at home. After that, he took a nap, and then I dropped him off at work. I didn't have to work that night.

And now it's Wednesday. I ended up sleeping until 2 pm. I slept for 16 hours!!!! Totally unexpected. I guess that's what you get when you don't sleep much. My mom had to wake me up when she got home! Hahaha....so, Jessi came home, we got ready for youth group, and then left. Here are some pictures from tonight.

This is Breanna and Me.


Trev Dog.


Our lovely Youth Pastor Dave!


Shawna, Pam, Catie, and Ashley.


Goofy Matt Wolters


Dave Bradford


Sumitra (I hope I spelled that right) and Brooke


And Me!!


That's it for now, only the middle of the week. So much more to happen!!!

Quite a time spent

This past week has been interesting.

Sunday, I was at work until about 7 ish, dropped people off at home, got home around 8, got ready for church in 15 minutes, went to get Nate, went to church, went to lunch with the family, went home and slept. Worked that night.

Monday, I worked. Wow, fun stuff...then I went to a get together at Nate's grandma's house. That was cool, met alot of people.

Tuesday, Went to Indiana with Doug, Kelly and Nate. We had to get some things. I didn't have to work that night, so I went back home.
This is Kelly.
This is Doug.
Nate and Me.


Wednesday, made breakfast for Doug, Kelly, Nate and myself. I woke up at 6:45 am, and they came over after work which was around 7:30. That was cool. Then, Doug and Kelly left, and Nate spent the day with me. We watched some movies, and did some shopping. It was his mom's birthday. Went to the Grand Roller rink and talked to John for a bit. We were going to go skating and crash a party, but he fell asleep on the couch when we got hom around 4 pm. He had been awake for over 24 hours. I made spaghetti, and it was real tasty. I had the night off again, so I watched tv. Nate was asleep in my bed, and I slept on the couch.
Nate asleep on the couch.

Thursday, woke up around 5 am with Nate and watched cartoons, or the lack-there-of on a Thursday morning. Watched movies all day. I went to a meeting for about a half an hour. Nate stayed home. Came back, had pizza. Anut, Kiara, Jarett and Dani came over for a bit and visited. Nate didn't have to work that night, so he stayed all day until I went to work. I fell asleep many times throughout the day. But it's all good. So I drove him to work so someone could pick him up, and I worked.
My cousin Kiara.
Me laying on the couch.
Me alseep on Nate on the couch. My mom took this picture.

Friday, Worked until about 7 ish, came home, went right to bed and slept all day until I had to get up to get ready for work. Work was PSYCHO!! The past few days, we've had visiting associates from other stores dumping out back rooms and bins so we could get caught up. Hahaha, it's tough to work around 4 or 5 other people in your aisle and get all your frieght done. We were told that the expectation is that we get all our frieght done and work our bins, EVERY NIGHT!! I know it can be done, but on bigh load nights, that will be tough. I will just have to work harder and do all that I can do. I know I can do it. Plus, there is a new GM manager, who I already don't like. He seems like a jerk. I can deal with Michelle. We've had a new associate on grocery side, who is making ma angry, because she doesn't know what she's doing, although she said she can trow 50 cases an hour, and has done this before. Ugh, I won't go in to details. We got a new guy tonight, and he used to work at Meijer's. We will also be getting another guy tonight, so that's really cool!!! Hopefully things will get better!!

Now, it's Saturday, and I'm sitting on my bed listening to some Umphrey's. Woot. I had some Special K cereal and some grape juice. It's exciting. Hopefullly I can get in an oil change in on my car. I'm 200 miles over, and my oil light keeps flashing. I have the stuff, I just need the time. I'll have to call my dad to see when he's coming home from work so I can

Sooo, now that I'm done with what I have to say, I think I'll so something else.

Offical.

It's been a while since my last post.
Work now consumes my life.
Along with some other things like, sleeping, eating, showering, so on.....
It's official as of this morning that Nate and I are official....there mom, now you know.
I'm happy, like, you don't even know. I feel so safe with him. He's so sweet, so kind, so....I don't even know!!
I get butterflies everytime I'm with him. He's FANTASTIC!!! My mom said that she has never seen me happier, which makes me think, wow...he's a keeper!

Anywho, I met some of his family the other day, and I get to meet a whole bunch more today. I guess, from what I've heard, every year on January 1st, there's a big dinner at his Grandma's house...and she's expecting like around 50 or so people. Sooooo, yeah, that's a lot of names...haha. So far, I LOVE his familly, they're great, kinda like my family. Very laid back, funny, it feels like I really fit in when I'm over there. So yeah....


Other than that, I need to sleep for a few hours before I go over there around noon.