Ewwww

I worked an extra hour, so I was there until 8. :Suck:

I was moving really slow today at work. :Suck:

I've not taken a shower in two days, I stink. :Suck:

I'm going to take a shower after I finish with this blog. :Not suck:

Lunch with the boys was entertaining as usual. :Not Suck:

Nate said he's going to talk to me tonight?!?!?! :Not suck (hopefully):

Another year gone by.

So, yesterday, I turned 20 years old. Nothing special happened. I was taken to breakfast by my grandma, and we ran in to Pastor Dave and Matt. That was fun, I tried to take Matt's glasses case, and ended up giving it to Dave, who in turn gave it to Matt....fun stuff. Then me and my grandma went shopping for Jess' Christmas gifts, and Kiara's too. We also got some things for the "family game" that we play on Christmas. It's fun. After that, I went home and slept until about 5:30 or 6. Had dinner with the family and then went to bed again. I slept all night, which surprised me a lot. I figured I'd be up around 4 or so. I got a ton of calls from people wishing me a happy birthday. So that was cool.

Today, I hung out with Nate. I brought a pizza over to his house, and we watched Pirates of the Carribean: Dead Man's Chest. It was good. Then we came to my house, and watched Tommy Boy, and then I taught him some stuff on the guitar, watched Law and Order, and colored a picture in a coloring book. Then, we had some nachos for dinner, and watched Sin City with the family. It was s difficult movie to follow. I suppose I'll have to watch it again. I brought him home around 9:30. And for the sake of Matt's knowledge and my own, he is a Christian. Yet, I think he's not very strong in his faith. But, he is making an effort, and going to church right now. And you have to start somewhere. All I can do is pray and hope that he gets stronger in his faith.

I had a pretty good day.

Spilled ink in the shape of a puzzle piece.

So, on Wednesday, I was thinking of what I wanted my next tattoo to be. And since my great grandma just passed away, I decided to get one to remember her. She was always doing puzzles when I was at her house. So, I decided to get a puzzle piece on the inside of my left wrist that has a green and blue gradient for coloring. So, around noon on Thursday, I went with my Birthday money from my Aunt Kim, Uncle Rob, Devin and Grandpa Wheeler, and got my tattoo. It is beautiful! Not knowing what anyone would say, or what was about to happen, I went in search for my grandma to show her. She was at home, with my Aunt Tina. I went to her house, and was like, "Look what I got!" and pulled my sleve up to show the puzzle piece. My Grandma started to cry. Earlier in the day around 7 am, she wrote a poem titled "A Puzzle Unfinished" and after she had written that, she found out that my Great Grandma had left an unfinished puzzle on her table at home the day of her surgery, saying, "I'll finish it when I get back home." I showed my Aunt, and she wanted to get the same one, but was wondering what I would say. I said that it was fine, since it is a family thing. So, we went down to get hers done. After we got that done. We went back to get Kiara, and went to our house, and showed my mom after reading the poem to her. She wanted one too. I ended up calling Nate, and had to run to get some food for my Aunt. In that time, my sister got home, and heard about the tattoo. She wanted one too. So my mom said yes. So, when I got back home, we went and got their tattoos. My mom's is on her right ankle, and mine, my Aunt's and Jess' are on our left wrist. Now I'm just wondering who's next.

All tattoos were done at the Oracle in Holland. Inked by Brett!

I'll post pictures later.

Good news bad news.

So, today, my Great Grandma Wilson died after her surgery. They were working on her cancer (her second operation). I know that she is in a better place. She is no longer in pain. My Uncle Leon, her son, said, "If anyone was any more ready to go, it was her." And that statement is so true. She was ready to go home, and to stay there, in the loving arms of the Father. When I heard it, I had a total blank face on. My mom burst in to tears, and she was very unhappy. I tried to calm her down, but I knew that I wouldn't be able to do that. I didn't cry until after I saw her in her bed. She had tubes everywhere, and bloodstains on her skin. I held her hand, and said a prayer, remembered all the times we had together. If you know me well enough, you know that I am not a very emotional person. It was the same with my grandma's death a while back. It wasn't until the last day of the funeral, that I showed anything remotely close to emotion.

In other news, Nate came over after work. We ate a bowl of cereal, and watched some movies. We started out watching Encino Man on DVD, but our player is messed up. So, we watched Drop Dead Fred on the TV. We also watched Field of Dreams, Popeye and part of King Kong. In the middle of King Kong was when the bad news came in to play. So, I brought him to his mom's house, and then went to the hospital.

Crunchy Dogs.

Work was good.
Went to lunch at Doug's house with Kelly, Nate, Nick and Rey. It was cool I suppose. I had some tortilla chips with salsa con queso, apple juice, and a Crunchy Dog. It's like a corn dog, but it's got a crunchy batter, and it's made of turkey, I think. It's better than eating by myself when Merlinda isn't there to eat with. She's my "adopted mom" at work. She's really cool. We're supposed to be having a "Just because" potluck at work Thursday, but I doubt that anyone will sign up, because people are stupid. But, On Friday morning, after work, a bunch of us are supposed to be going bowling. Me and another girl at work are trying to get people together and just hang out, like skating, or bowling. Good bonding times together.

I have off Tuesday and Wednesday. Hanging out with Jeff on Wednesday. He's the one who asked me, so that's cool. He's a hard one to get to know too...he can be a jerk. But once you know him, he's pretty sweet. Not too sure what we're gonna do, but we'll see. I'll probably see if Nate wants to do something on Tuesday.
Other than that, not too much to report. We celebrated my dad's birthday and my birthday with both sides of the family this weekend. I ended up with $100 in total, a new phone (which I got about a month ago), and my grandpa gave me his Canon camera, which I'm STOKED about!!! For real. I love that camera, it's not digital, but it's still cool. I love it. I'll just have to get the pictures on disk when I get them developed.

Ok, well, that's all I have for now.

Bored much?

Single or Taken: single

Happy about that: Sometimes

Siblings: 1 sister

Eye color: brown

Height: 5'4'' ish

What are you wearing right now? jeans, and a shirt, socks, the undergarments

Can you make a dollar in change right now: I'm broke

Best place to go for a date: The beach, or home, what ever.
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FAVORITES

Kind of pants: Jeans or sweatpants.

Number: 18

Animal: Cat, dog and reptiles
Drink (non alcoholic): Water

Sport to watch: None, but the Olympics when they are on.

Month: October

Juice: Orange juice

Favorite cartoon character: Blu (Foster's Home for Imaginary Friends)

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Have You Ever...

Given anyone a bath: No

Bungee Jumped?: No

Gone skinny dipping? No

Eaten a dog? No

Loved someone so much it made you cry? Yes

Broken a bone? No

Played truth or dare? Yes

Been on a plane? Yes

Been in a hotub? Yes

Swam in the ocean? Yes

Fallen asleep in school? Yes

Ran away? No

Broken someone's heart? Maybe

Cried when someone died? Yes

Cried in school? Yes

Fell off your chair? Yes

Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call? Kind of.

Saved AIM conversations? No

Saved e-mails? No

Used someone? No
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What is...
it
Your good luck charm? I don't have one.

Favorite song? Too many to name.

What is beside you? Left: Closet door, trash can. Right: bed

What kind of shampoo/conditioner do you use? What ever my parents buy, usually Suave

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Ever Had..

Chicken pox: Yes

Sore Throat: Duh!

Stitches: Twice

Broken nose: No
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Do You...

Believe in love at first sight? Not yet.

Long distant relationships? Not really.

Like school? It depends what classes I have, but in general yes.

Who was the last person that called you? Mike Wade.

Who makes you smile the most? Lately, Nate, but usually family and friends and everyone.

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Do you like filling these out? Depends on how much time I have, I'm usually pretty fast.

Do you wear contact lenses or glasses? No.

Do you like yourself: Yes.

Do you like your family? Yes.
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Are You...

Obsessive Compulsive? Maybe with some things.

Suicidal? No.
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Final Questions:

What did you do yesterday: Went to Wal-Mart, bummbed around on the computer, slept, more computer, baked cookies, shower, played with Kiara, went to Christmas party and brought Nate, watched a movie at his house, work.

Hated someone in your family? Never hate, but at times didn't like.

Gotten any awards? Academic ones

What car/truck do you wish to have? Jeep Wrangler or CJ

Where do you want to get married?? On the beach with no shoes.

Good driver? Depneds on the time, weather, and traffic, but yes, I am.

Have a lava lamp? Somewhere.

How many remote controls are in your house? Over 10.

What was your last dream about? I don't remember.

Scary or Funny Movies? Both.

Chocolate or Vanilla? Both.

Rootbeer or Dr.Pepper? Neither.

Skiing or Boarding? Skiing.

Summer or winter? Spring.

Silver or Gold? Silver.

Diamond or pearl? Both.

Sprite or 7up? Squirt.

Coffee or Tea? Both, mostly tea.

Phone or in person? Depends, but mostly person.

Are you oldest, middle or youngest? Oldest.

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Today did you...

1. Talk to someone you liked: Yes.

2. Buy something: Yes.

3. Get sick? No.

8. Talked to an ex? No.

9. Miss someone? Yes.
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Last person who....

10. Slept at your house/dorm? Dani and Brooke, (cousin and friend)

11. Saw/heard you cry? Mom, Dad, Jess.

12.Why? Many reasons.

13. Went to the movies with? Scott.

15. Said "I Love You"? Mom, Dad.
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16. Ever been in a fight with your pet? No.

18. Been to Mexico? A few times.

19. Been to Canada? A few times.

20. Been to Italy? No.
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Random.....

21. Do you have a crush on someone right now: Yes.

22. What book are you reading now? None.

23. Best feeling in the world? Being loved/wanted.

24. Future KIDS names? Mackenzie Lee and Bryce William.

25. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal? No.

26. What's under your bed? Djembe case, Guitar case, shoe box...probably something else.

27. Favorite sports to watch? I answered this already.

28. Favorite Locations? Beach, camping in the middle of nowhere.

29. Piercing/Tattoos? 9/1

30. What are you most scared of right now? Being alone.

31. Who do you really hate? I don't hate people, I strongly dislike people.

32. Do you have a job? Yes. A crappy one but it pays the bills.

33. Have you ever liked someone you didn't have a chance with? Who hasn't?

38. Song that's stuck in your head right now? None.

39. Have you ever played strip poker? No.

40. Have you ever gotten beat up? No.

42. Have you ever been on radio/TV? Yes.

43. Have you ever been in a "mosh-pit"? Yes.

44. Ever liked someone, but thought they never noticed you? Yes.
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Random...

What color is your underwear right now? Lime green with blue, pink and yellow polka dots.

Whats the first things you notice about the opposite sex? Eyes, smile, personality.

Your Favorite Food? Spaghetti, pizza.

Ever get so drunk you dont remember the night before? No.

Hair color? Brown with red and blonde highlights.

Are you too shy to ask someone out? Most of the time, not lately.

Butter, Plain or Salted popcorn? Buttered and salted.

Dogs or cats? Both.

Favorite Flower? Carnations.

Have you ever fired a gun? Yes.

Do you like to travel by plane as opposed to car? Depneds, I like road trips with the right people.

"Yes"

So, this is fun.
I slept all night on Wednesday, so I was up all day Thursday. Did stuff with Jess because she had a snow day, and did some house work. After everyone went to bed, I was up (and still am at 6 am). At around 4:30, I decided that I was sick of playing online games and chatting, and that I was bored and wanted to go to Wal-Mart. So I did. Put my jeans on, and went. The drive there was cold; bitter cold.

Any ways. I went over to the GM side, and found Rey and Doug. I talked to them, and then they brought up Nate and things with him, like if I've talked to him, and all that. Anywho....I walked around and talked to other people and every single person that I saw said, "What are you doing here?"

I replied, "I was bored."

I am trying to get a group together to go bowling next week Friday morning after work. It would be fun. So far, a few people will be going, so yeah.

I went to break with Nate, Rey, Doug, and Kelly.

On the way to the break room, I asked Nate if he wanted to go to the youth leader Christmas party tonight, and he said yes. So that, so far, has been the highlight o my day. Yay!!

I'm excited. Doug and Rey both said that Nate is a shy person, so we'll see how that goes...

After the party, we'll have to go to work but that's ok. I can deal with that.

Hair Creature destroyed

Misson accomplished. My drain now flows freely in my shower. I had to use a plunger to get all the hair out of the drain. It smelled horrible and I almost threw up in my shower. It was so bad, that there was about two inches of water because it wouldn't flow....

YUCK!!

Um,
Youth group tonight, Youth leader Christmad party on Friday...the next two days off of work!! WHOOOHOO!!

I miss Doogie Howser.
And the Wonder Years...

Ahh, the old days...

Relation-ships?

So as of late, I've been thinking. Was I meant to have a boyfriend or any type of relationship whatsoever? Is it something that I do that steers guys away from me? Is it something I do that makes them only want to be friends? Am I too aggressive? Am I too tom-boyish? What am I doing?

I don't know, I guess I don't like the feeling of being "alone" and whatever. And how come I always get ditched when they say, yeah, we'll hang out, and then make plans.....it's a load of crap.

I'm sick of dealing with things, and being the "initiator" with conversation, or asking if they want to hang out.

There's a guy at work, named Nate, he's pretty sweet. Same age as me. I'm still getting to know him, but he's a hard one to get to know. He's oober shy....and I am shy, when it comes to talking to guys.

I need a confidence booster!

God,
I pray that you will put the "one" for me in my life, and that I'll know it. That you'll show me who is right for me. Please guide my heart, thoughts, words and actions so that I may be a light for others.

Amen